This last week has really opened my eyes... and this happens quite often with me: I will forget what REALLY matters in my life until something jolts me and I am reminded that the little things I obsess over and hold grudges about do not matter. I am not one to really hold a "grudge", however if someone has truly hurt me- I have a hard time forgetting that. I don't try to continue being offish or mean about the situation, but I will think about the situation a lot, dwell on it and continue to have hurt feelings often until one day I just don't think about it anymore. I know this is not healthy behavior and I truly try to get over things quickly...its just my personality. It's also my personality to beat myself up over a situation and never forgive myself for the mistakes I make. The point to my ramblings is this:
Life is too short and too precious to hold onto any negative feelings
I try to keep my blog an upbeat and happy place...obviously this is not the way life is ALL the time, and its not the way MY life is all the time. I have hard times, stressful situations, heartache, worries and sadness just like all of you. This week my brother's father-in-law found out he has cancer. This has been such an extreme blow to their family and to all their friends and family as you can imagine. My heart breaks for them and my prayers and thoughts are centered around them. It makes me realize that all the silly things I stress and worry about and dwell on do not matter in the big scheme of things. It brings my life into perspective. What matters is who I love, how I treat them and everyone around me, and the GOOD things I do in my life. I want to be a good person, mom, and wife. I want to love everyone and be happy! I want to be a good influence and example... I want to let things go! I don't want to dwell on the little things, I want to focus on the big picture. So many people in my life are excellent examples of all the positive things I want to be and I thank them for that! I hope we can all focus on the good things in our life and may the bad things leave quickly.
I have a terrible time not dwelling on the past, it's something I struggle with all the time.
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